When is it all too much?
Is it really worth it? I ask myself that as my husband just came out of 2 years of graduate school with his second masters degree. It wasn’t easy on our relationship but in some ways easier since we are/were both graduate students. I will finish up my last year this year and still contemplating more schooling. I keep thinking, will I have time for our children? What kind of mother will I be? Driven, with little time for family or family oriented who puts career second? I am having this conversation daily with a co worker who is about to have her 1st child and like me is finishing up her second masters and is struggling with whether or not she wants to be home, work part time or full time. I think no matter the decision we are giving up a lot. Its a sacrifice and one has to decide between being the shrewd career woman and/or the doting mother and wife. I think either way we can’t have it all. I recently came to this conclusion after watching yet another show on Oprah about the mommy wars. You know, both sides square off and tell each other why they are so horrible for making the decisions they’ve made thus far about career and family.
I’m torn. I want it all. I want to be the consummate mother, wife, career woman, entrepreneur, you name it I want it. There’s a fine line that must be respected or else you run the risk of tipping the scales. And if you do, is it so bad? I want to witness every waking moment with our children and I want to know that I worked hard to give them the best. I also want to protect them from the harsh realities of our world the best that I can. Still, I know that I have to keep ME in mind. I still want to put my education and experience to good use, not stay at home, be bored and possibly take myself out of the running within my chosen field.
Decisions, decisions.  Im sure DH isn’t thinking about this at all! LOL! How great it must me to be a man!

